*excerpt from 1021’s writing, A Real Dinger
No one is a stranger to making mistakes, but we all have those mistakes we’ve placed in the category of nonnegotiable – “I will never ____.” But, as us humans would have it, it seems we most fear what we are most drawn to. And, by history’s account, there are few who abstain from the warm output of a deep, fiery lust; a hunger so starved it roars for attention. Me? I got cozy. I fed the hunger. I twisted values and set aside ethics I held to with deep conviction. Man…talk about sobering – I got squared up and checked back to 20/20 vision. And what sinks me into deep remorse is not the staining of my worthless, hierarchal, moral track record I created to supplement my insidious interest in superiority; it was simply my disengagement in the continual and worthy fight to be more than just who we feel we are. Mike Flannigan’s hit show, Midnight Mass, says it perfectly:
Annie Flynn: “Is that what I’ll become, just an animal who can’t resist?”
Ed Flynn: “When I saw them at the church, I thought it was just something they couldn’t help. Like… something impossible not to do. But, it isn’t, Annie. I feel it too. I’m starving, too. But, I didn’t. I didn’t. Whatever this is, don’t change who you are.”
